What's been going on

You may have noticed I haven't been posting. Well, here's what's going on.

My ex took off. No one has seen or heard from him in a week. His parents are fairly sure he's at the house of the girl he was dating over the winter, because they pulled his phone records and he called her right before he disappeared. They went over there and her kid (3 years old!) answered the door and said he was there, but he wouldn't come to the door.

He's missed three visitations and one child support payment. I'm really not sure what I'm going to do without child support. I'm planning on calling the lawyer this week to see what my options are.

I'm left with a mixed bag of emotions. Part of me is livid. He blew off his kids, his responsibilities, left me to handle it all- the kids' questions, the childcare, the bills. The other part of me is relieved. I hate him. I think we would be better off if he never came back.

I don't know what to do/think/feel.

However, as all moms (and some dads, too, I know) do, I've just kept going. I've been keeping the kids busy playing, working in the garden, giving them extra love.

Here are a few pictures of what we've been working on:

Project Clothesline is back in full effect, thanks to unseasonably warm weather in New England:

We've begun gardening, planting peas...

lettuce, spinach, beets and potatoes.

I guess it could be worse. Sigh.