Damn it! I am not entirely sure what is wrong with me lately, but I have been spending a lot more money than usual. I'm sure part of it has to do with the fact that I've been feeling really down lately, because of some issues that are going on with my soon-to-be ex. After going to the Gap on Thursday and spending 89.00 on clothes, I went to the mall yesterday and bought my 3 year old some underwear (12.00) and lunch for all of us (30.00). Then I went to Target today, and spent another 80.00. I bought 2 shirts for me (one of which is going back, it was 13.00), a tshirt for Mikey (the 3 year old), a puzzle for Mikey (he's sick, which is why I think I'm buying him stuff, plus I told him that he is probably feeling better and should stop talking about it and my Mother in Law gave me a really nasty look which made me feel worse, even though he likes to say he's sick when he isn't... ugh. Mommy guilt.), a pair of shoes for work, a set of Pyrex baking dishes with lids, a box of garbage bags and some diapers for Max. These were all things that I needed, but didn't REALLY need, which is why I feel so guilty.
My friend reminded me that being frugal doesn't mean not spending ANY money at all, but I still feel like I messed up. I have been thinking and thinking lately about how I really should have cancelled my cable and internet for this year, and probably my cell phone or at least downgraded to a cheapy one, but I didn't. I guess it didn't seem worth it to me, but now I feel like I didn't really go all out with this. Maybe I'm just being hard on myself because I'm feeling down about other things, in which case it should get better soon, but for today, I feel like I effed up. So, sorry.